For today's blog, let's talk about strength.
'You are a strong person', 'stay strong', 'You are a rock'
I am strong, but not for the reasons that you think I am. Please do not misinterpret my workaholic tendencies, my emotional dissociation, my stubbornness, my complete self sufficiency, my oxen-like muscles, my superhero powers or my wanna be perfectionism, for strength.
Those are not proud skills, or values that I hold dear. They are dysfunction. They are how I survive. And really at this point in the production, that is all I am trying to do.
Today, (and its not over yet) has been hard. I hate this show. I see no good reason to be here, no valuable learning, no networking opportunities, no faithful calling, just a never ending flow of crap that is sucking the life right out of me.
so what to do?
Sounds like you could use some BJJ therapy.
ReplyDeleteThere is a Gracie Barra club in Kamloops and for an hour you can go and choke, arm bar and triangle your troubles away.
Its amazing what a little violence can do for a soul.